Sign

Am I that weird? Did chose the right path? For most part, I think I'm doing well. But am I?

The Idealist, The Dreamer.
Probably a way to define me. But why is it so hard to hold on? But I can't give up now. Not now, not ever. I have an idea, a dream for a better world.

Life is a mystery.

They works mysteriously.

So give me a sign...

I want to know

Did I make a good choice?

Did I chose the right path?








God, give me a sign...

Adre

01:00 am post

So yeah, how are you? How have you been? It's been a long time since my last post. Forgive me.

Whoever are you, or maybe there's nobody there... I just want to share a bit of my story.

Things change a lot huh? It really is. I'm in vetenary school now, what a surprise since in the last 16 years I always want to be an architect. Why change? Because of things that happen to me ofcourse.

I had a really tough time. I can't say that my life is hard. Because on the outside it's not. But there's something that always bother me in my mind. And I always find myself lost. And lost again. But aren't we all lost?

What's life exactly? There's always question legt. I wanna know. For what reason I'm here. What's the meaning of this?

But I'm scared. The answer might not be good. And I'm scared. But aren't we all?

There's a really good movie I liked a lot, the title is It's A Kind Of Funny Story. I kinda find myself in that movie. And I really liked it, and have a nice songs too.

The reason I chose vetenary school and chose to be a vet is because I'm searching. For a meaning in my life. I believe I was born to do sonething, to make something better. I want to save animals because they saved me. They give me a meaning, a purpose. I chose to be a wildvet, because I want to save animals. And I will go as far as put my life on it. Yes, that's how much it's means to me to have meaning, a purpose to continue to live. Aren't we all need a purpose to live?

There's always part of me that hiden. Under the happy go lucky smile of mine.

Love have change a lot in my perspective. The one true love, is it really exist?

I'm changing a lot. And I noticed that. I think for some reason, God have put me trough all those shitty situation so I can become this. The probably better part of me.

I'm still learning, and still changing. To be something better to make a better world. But one thing for sure, my core will never change. The curious little kid who want to know about the meaning of life.



Night, night
Adre

Review Day! Horray!

okay guys, so long time no see eh? well, in my defense I was bussy... and lazy. HAHAH. I got so much to do plus zero inspiration so I haven't write any post in a long time. you sir/ma'am the reader, deserve an apology. so... I'm apologize :)

what to do what to do, okay today I'm gonna review bunch of anime series and a movie. hope y'all enjoy it!

Adre

That maybe...

There's a time when you blame everyone when you're failing. You blame your friends, your family, or even the system. You think the world is an unfair place and you already did your best.

You deny all of your failures.

Because blaming yourself is the worst. Because you scared that you're nothing, you're untalented, and just some ultimate loser. You afraid of the fact that you actually failed.

But you know what? you can blame all you want. You can deny all of those million times. The fact that you failed, is nobody's fault, it's yours. And all you have to do is to admit, that maybe, that there's a possibility, that you...

mess it up a little

Adre

The Life of A Masked Hero

It's not easy to be a masked hero.

To be a masked hero is to chose the lonely part of life. Because no one know his face, his identity is just an icon to the whole world.

Masked hero not consider a human being. A legend, a myth everyone worship. Example of the good, but he is nowhere near good. Just a human trying to survive the pain from the past.

He's trying to do the right thing. But doing right thing, doesn't make it easy nor happy. But it's the right thing to do. And it has to be done by someone.

Remind everyone that somebody really care and show that living is something beautiful. But he himself, doesn't quite sure, if someone care about him. Because nobody knows him completely. Because he's nobody, only a man without identity.

To see smiling faces is the most happiest thing in whole universe. Knowing that life gonna get better, knowing that he did something, a legacy to be pass on. To do what he have to do.

Being a masked hero is not as easy as you think. Only a man without identity, a nobody. But he doesn't need recognition or grateful thank you. He just need someone to smile because of him. And sometimes it's hurt, to know no one gonna make him smile. To face the brutality of reality on his own.

-Adre

The Purpose

What's the pupose of life?

Why I came to this beautiful and twisted world?

Purpose-tujuan, apa tujuan hidup didunia yang indah (sekaligus membingungkan dan penuh misteri) ini? Menurut saya? yah untuk sementara ini, tujuan hidup paling basic saya adalah berguna bagi orang lain dan bagi dunia ini sendiri.

Kenapa dre? Kok simpel banget tujuannya? Sebenarnya kalau dipikir simpel dan sederhana sih memang iya, tapi menurut saya ini tujuan yang paling tepat buat saya. Tentulah pas saya kecil saya pengen jadi dokter, pelukis, penulis, blablabla tapi sekarang bagi saya itu cuman angan-angan. Mungkin saya aja yang pesimis atau kelewat realistis, saya dulu sempet nge-down karena ini. Tapi saya sadar yang namanya pekerjaan itu bukan tolak ukur untuk sebuah mimpi dan cita-cita. Kalau tujuan hidup bukan dinilai dari apa pekerjaannya, tapi apa yang dia kontribusikan selama di dunia.

Konstribusi saya? Saya sendiri belum yakin apa yang udah saya lakukan selama ini... Jujur aja, saya merasa belum melakukan sesuatu yang signifikan dan patut dibanggakan. Tapi saat ini, saya selalu berusaha untuk membahagiakan orang lain, membuat orang lain tertawa, dan tidak menjadi beban bagi orang lain. Saya tidak ingin mati menjadi orang yang tidak pernah menjadi apa-apa. Saya selalu merasa bahagia saat orang lain bahagia karena saya, rasanya seperti saya juga yang senang. Haha. sesimpel itu kebahagian saya, membuat orang lain senang.

Untuk kedepannya nanti, saya ingin mengikuti kegiatan sosial. Rencananya saya akan mulai donor darah, karena saya sudah 17 tahun (yeay). Dan berhubung saya suka sekali binatang, saya ingin menjadi relawan di lembaga-lembaga lingkungan. Saya ingin kerja magang dimana-mana, ingin membantu orang lain, berkeliling dunia (terutama ke Antartika, Eropa, dan Korea Utara), punya tempat tinggal sendiri, dan bisa membiayai orangtua.

Kenapa saya jadi menulis cita-cita saya gini? Haha. Mungkin saya hanya ingin cerita. Saya selalu merasa orang lain tidak mengerti maksud dan tujuan saya hidup. Kalau ditanya saya ingin jadi apa? saya belum tau, yang saya tau... saya hanya ingin berguna bagi orang lain.

Mungkin itu saja post kali ini, oh ya saya juga lagi suka banget nih sama lagu "I'm Still Here" dari John Rzeznik (vokalis Goo Goo Dolls) yang berasal dari sountrack film "Treasure Island". Nanti akan saya post juga lyric lagunya, hehe.

XOXO

Adre

Hello, I just finished and sent my assignment to my teacher. and I thought "hey why not write one post?"

and now here I am.

it's already midnight and I'm extremely exhausted. I just got home at 10 pm... thursday always be an exhausting day. well, because I have ballet class at 5 pm until 6:30 pm and music theory class at 8 pm until 9 pm. yeah... my life is kinda bussy.

but this is the exciting one, I'm actually liking it. I like to be bussy, to do something I love to do. to be passionette about something. I want to live up my dreams.

tomorow I have chemistry test. I so lazy to studying. I don't like chemistry very much. just mediocre. but I do like physic. and art. haha.

I curently like (or love) for classical music. I have this playlist in my handphone, that full of classical music. I like boys who can play classical music instrumen. it's cool. even so, my crush can't play any instrumen........ *moment of silent*

well, this post already have to many random thoughts on my head. so goodbye...
Adre

games oh games...

do you know playing The Sims 2 is so addictive?? gezz, I can play it all day long, all day! and that's why I barely touch my blog during my vacation. hehe, making excuse...

so that's all? oh yeah I got jurusan IPA in my high school. so pumped! I won't studying economic and sosiology again! yes! see you in next post! I want to play The Sims 2 again...

goodbye
Adre

a 2 o'clock Post

how was your day? me? pretty fun, except I had some headache this evening, quite annoying though.

so... it's 2 in the morning. yeah I'm still up and write this nonsense post. I have nothing to write about, I just want to write some random things, and an experiment to what I will write in this time (because I have no quotes or inspiring stories or something awesome). this is the most less backspace post I ever write. well, I actually don't know, but seriously sometimes I can write about half an hour just for 2 or 3 paragraph. I guess I'm that "thinker" bloger type. you know, maybe, I'm not really sure about it.

and I have no more idea to write about. so? is this post come to an end? yeah, I think so.

goodbye, sweetdreams
Adre

Changes

it's funny how people say "You've change" because we're all change, day by day, year by year. we change.

akhir pekan lalu, gue ngelewatin jalan yang biasa gue laluin waktu kecil. and things have changes. toko yang tadinya ada jadi ngga ada, gedung yang tadinya tempat kost jadi rongsokan, tempat makan yang suka gue kunjungin dulu udah berubah dekornya. semua udah berubah.

dan entah kenapa rasanya kangen. hal-hal kecil yang gue sukain berubah satu demi satu. gue pengen semuanya kaya dulu, ga berubah, aman, dan familiar. but people changes, the world changes, hell, even life changes.

manusia yang berumur cukup panjang harus menyaksikan, satu demi satu, semua hal berubah. memori yang hilang. kenangan yang hilang. tidak ada hal yang bisa digenggam untuk bertahan, karena pada akhirnya semua akan berubah.

you know, it's funny how things have changes alot. and yet we still alive, after seeing constant changes. we still survive, and breath.

Adre

How Joyous Life Are

a short review of a movie by Danny Boyle, "127 Hours"

127 Hours is the true story of mountain climber Aron Ralston's remarkable adventure to save himself after a fallen boulder crashes on his arm and traps him in an isolated canyon in Utah. Over the next five days Ralston examines his life and survives the elements to finally discover he has the courage and the wherewithal to extricate himself by any means necessary, scale a 65 foot wall and hike over eight miles before he can be rescued. Throughout his journey, Ralston recalls friends, lovers, family, and the two hikers he met before his accident.

and what I like about this movie is, first the scoring was totaly awesome and on point. and the second, I think this is a movie about how joyfull life are.

you may think my thoght are strange, but hear this. Aron Ralston  has the courage to cut his arm of because what? life. he want to survive, he want to live so badly. he want to live his life again.

this movie is a movie about how joyous life are, because Aron Ralston want to live again, and not to die in the canyon. because he has the courage to cut his arm if it needed, to live, to survive. because life is more than death in anyway.

-Adre

Peace

windy day, cold wind blows. and when it touch me, I get chills. but it's different. loneliness doesn't attack me brutally, there's only calmness.

I laying down on my bed, in dimly room. and wait for the bad things happen, the angger, the tears. but there's not any. there's only beautiful silence. an orchestra of soundless life.

and I played a beautiful song, notes come trough my hands. fingers starts to dance in piano keys. and my minds fly away, even my body still in the piano seat. I fly

life it's at silence. whispering a beautiful notes, a melody.

and sudenly I have this peace. a clam sound of my mind and my heart. and world, and people... becomes little bit better, little bit sweeter.

singing a soundless song, a lulaby of a unending dream. I sing, with the life, with the winds. and I feel at peace.

-Adre

WATAPPP????

so long time no post! *bersihindebukarat* weheheh. maaf ya readers, I've been so bussy lately :). maaf daku maafkan maafkan *efekgemasinetron*

oke enough becandanya dre *nampar*. jadi post ini gw dedikasi untuk apa? untuk RED MAROON JEANS!! yeah yeah, gw lagi jatuh cinta ama warna jeans yang satu ini. I mean, doesn't this colour pop out and unique? like me rite? *plak*

kenapa tau-tau out of nowhere, gw mengincar jeans ini? well, gatau sih kenapa. gw udah tau kalo jeans warna merah marun itu ada and pretty cool too. tapi gw gak pernah kepikiran buat beli. mungkin gw pengen beli karena... jeng jeng, salah satu jeans gw robek. dan dalam lemari gw cuman ada 2 jeans. salah satunya robek.... hmmm sesuatu (lho kok ada syahrini?).

and also, i bought a new glasses. pada dasarnya gw emang pake kacamata dari kelas 7. tapi minus mata gw makin parah. makin buta (?). hubungannya apa dre?? well, since I bought that glasses gw pengen nyoba sesuatu yang baru. dan gw pengen nyoba jeans warna marun (?). and I found out that nerdy look is kinda fun.

nah dre gimana lo mau makenya? ya dipake aja, kaya pake celana biasa... SALAH DENG! gw sih pengen nyoba pake jeans itu pake kaos distro and my new glasses ofcourse (kalo pake kacamata sih tuntutan penglihatan).

mau tau red maroon jeans? ini diaaa
so cute rite? :) tapi gw harus bersiap2 dengan duid yg cukup banyak. well, karena rata2 harga maroon jeans ini diatas 250 rb -_-. cediih


from a quirky nerd who wants new pair of jeans
ADRE ♥

hailooo. udah lama yah ga ngepost. huehehehe -_-. maafkan kemalsan blogger yang satu ini....

so, how do you do? me? fine thank you. sekalipun peer bejibun banyak bak Everest mountain (lebay). and you remember my last post about my previous school, do you? well, akhirnya gw udah bisa beradaptasi dengan sekolah barukuu. it's actually pretty good ya now. kelas gw seru banget. meskipun ga sama ama kelas gw dulu... but hey, nothing happen twice. dan juga apa serunya ngulangin kejadian seru berkali-kali (nah lho. bingung). jadi kesimpulannya, I already adapted.

next, apa lagi ya?? hmmm ini lagi puasa lhooo ^^. puasa emang asik, tapi gw gak pernah bisa teraweh sering-sering di mesjid karena selalu nyampe rumah jam 9an Щ(º̩̩́Дº̩̩̀щ). tahun ini juga gw berambisi buat sholat ied. soalnya tahun lalu sama sekali ga kedapetan teraweh! both Idul Fitri dan Idul Adha. pokoknya tahun ini harussss.

last but not least... pengakuan dosa. akhir-akhir ini mulai nonton anime Hunter X Hunter lagi. kalo diinget-inget gw dulu sukaaaa banget nonton ini. gw ampe kaya maniak Hunter X Hunter gitu. seriously, gw hapal episode, lagu, nama tokoh, dan hal-hal detail yang orang nonton biasa ga tau. I can't remember how many times I watched this anime. soalnya gw punya dvdnya sih -_-. tapi serius jugaaa, ini tuh seru banget! (promosi) gw itu orang yang susah suka susah lupa. sekalinya suka benerbenerbenerbener suka gitu. jadi mirip maniak gitu deh... dulu gw juga maniak BLG. but not so much rite now.

btw ininih Hunter X Hunter

tokoh favorit gw, Kurapica ^^



see you later, xoxo
ADRE ♥

hello. good to see you again guys :). I'm so bussy lately. heheh.

this post I present to my previous school SMPI Al-Azhar 2 Pejaten. yes, I'm already in high school now. my school is SMAN 34 Jakarta. hahah. time gone too fast. this all 3 years I've been done, is a amazing journey. it's time to open a new page and start all over again. but, memories are last. this amazing journey are over, but the new one is about to begin. hope the best luck for all of you. this 3 years of exciment is unforgetable. thanks for all friendship, love, hate, drama, and all of the things either if it good or bad. I enjoy it




with all love, kiss, and hug
ADRE

hello my name...

is Adre. so long time no post. thanks to UN and piano exam. all done (check!). many things change huh? not really I'm still a strange stranger ;)

just for fun... I'll write about me (lame huh?). just re-introduce myself. HEHEHEH. something I like, interest, newest obsetion. but first of all. let's start with...

Hello my name is Adre.
I was born in April 5th 1996.
I'm a little girl (literaly, I'm short).
I'm going to high school this year (wish me luck).
I live in Jakarta since I was a baby, a place full of hope and crap.
I'm in love.
I have many cats even I more like dogs.

7 things I like:
dancing.
ballet.
piano.
a cup of tea with lemon.
moonlight.
autum.
light that slipped through the trees.

my interest:
dance.
ballet.
art.
architecture.
autum.
thunder.

3 top obsession:
1. Pole Bear
2. Cyptid and unsolved mistery
3. interest place in europe


yeah yeah. thats all.
Adre ♥

new year, new spirit, keep it up
ADRE ♥

November Events

it's been a while since my last post. and November is already pass 2 month ago. but there's no rule agains me to post this. rite? :p


my November Events start in 6th November.







yes. i watch NYD 5th season performance. and what I thought? absolutely awesome.



the next events is on 12th November.











TEMPER TRAP CONCERT! it's super WOW. btw, dougi is so damn handsome :p



last but not least, 27th November

















hehehe. it's ONROP! musical. very entertaining show



okay, that's it. see you in next post :)
ADRE

hello (again)

helloooo!!
udah lama BANGET ga posting. udah dari bulan juni dan sekarang... oktober. 4 bulan ga nge-post apa-apa. keren...

so, what i've done in 4 month? TO MUCH TO TELL!!

apa ya pertama. humm. oh yeah gw ke kota tua bareng Khalidah ama Dini. hahay. seru lho. naek busway. ahay ahay

terus gw liburan bareng keluarga ke Singapore!
dan saya mau cerita... kalo gw di singapore homesick -_-. lebay sih. tp serius makan di singpore tuh gaenak. enakan makanan Indonesia! terus kamar mandinya jg gaenak. enakan di Indonesia!

terus abis liburan adalah jeng jeng!! saatnya masuk SEKOLAH!
gw masuk ke kelas *jeng jeng* 9c! kelas yg mojok dan disebelah ruang bk dan kelas yg luar biasa dingin. wali kelasnya *jeng jeng* pak sahdi a.k.a guru bahasa arab. wuwuu. dan klimaksnya! gw sekelas ama siapa aja? *jeng jeng* gw ga sekelas ama hamim. OH YA btw gw ama hamim menang di MOM sebagai terkompak lhooo. HEHEH. oke fokus. gw jg ga sekelas ama Khalidah. gw jg ga sekelas ama Adnan. gw jg ga sekelas ama Dini (iyalah. orang dini di kelas bilingual gw reguler). tapi gw sekelas ama Lintang. ahay. ama Yudis jg. anak yg rajin belajar ga kaya gw rajin ga mandi. oh ya ama Bayu jg. anak ekskul kepanduan jg yg apesnya jd ketua panitia kemping. mampus kau! sementara gw yg (katanya) ketua (yg ga becus) leha-leha jadi Sie. Acara aja. yuhuuu. btw gw abis kemping lho. tgl 1-2 oktober lalu. kemping ke-3 gw dan (kayanya) kemping terakhir gw di Alpen.

DAN MASA KELAS 9 GW DIMULAI! *musik horor*
kelas 9 = UN = SMA unggulan = belajar = death


btw gw bakal nonton konser THE TEMPER TRAP lhoo (ga penting). I'm excited



salam kangen, 04:57 pm 31 oktober 2010
ADRE

PIM-ing

yak kemaren gw abis PIM-ing. bukan,bukan ping di bb. kemaren gw dr PIM, Pondok Indah Mall. tadinya gw mau tulis Pondok Indah Mall-ing. tp entar dikira gw cerita tentang orang bernama Pondok Indah yang suka malingin jemuran. oke jadi ngelantur.

kemaren gw jalan di pim, dr jam 12 ampe jam setengah 8. itu berarti gw di mall selama lebih dr 6 jam. which is gw yang super jarang ke mall ini kesambet apa tiba2 jadi anak gahols. bertanya kenapa bisa selama itu? karena kemaren gw di pim nonton 2 pelem. iya, super maruk nonton 2 film dalam sehari,padahal banyak anak2 kelaparan (ga nyambung).

jadi tadinya kakak gw mau nge-pim ama pacarnya. nonton Karate Kid. nah emak kaga ngebolehin. jadi gw diajak deh ama kakak gw. yah lumayan lah. gw emang mau nonton Karate Kid. terus sodara gw, Dilla dan Dinda juga diajak. tp si dilla dan dinda ngga bisa kalo pagi, sedangkan pacar kakak gw ga bisa kalo sore. jadilah begini: paginya gw,kakak,dan pacar ngepim. sorenya dilla dinda dateng pacar kakak pulang, terus ngepim berempat. naha! terdengar ribet kan? (pdhal gw aja yang pusing sendiri bacanya)

pas pagi nontonnya Karate Kid pas sore nonton Toys Story 3 yang 3D. (review menyusul)

sooo kemaren hasrat nonton gw terbayar semua!! syalala~

dan hasrat kangen ama sodara juga terbayar. syalalala~

dan juga gw berhasil beli buku Marmut Merah Jambu nya Raditya Dika. syalalala~



senang cekaleeeh
ADRE